Love is blind. Agree?

Finally both of us can talk about our relationship openly. Finally I get to say sorry to him. All this while, I didn’t have guts and proper chance to apologize to him. Each time I want to talk about our relationship, I will chicken out because I am afraid that he will not talk to me anymore. Before I left to UK, I really want to meet up with him but I didn’t because I am really scare and afraid. I am afraid that if I ever see him again, I will never let him go. I am scared to face him and have no idea what to say to him.

Yesterday, I finally have the guts to say sorry to him but not face to face. I tell myself that when I see him in March, I will apologize to him again. He said there is nothing to be sorry and worry about. I told him that all this didn’t come into my mind until a guy asked me.

I told him about the guy because both of them were in the same school last time. We eventually turned the sad conversation into a funny conversation. Both of us were trying to recap those stupid things that we did when we were together. We attended campfires together, how rumors went around and how we actually started. I was impressed by the way that he used to court me. I told him that he cannot use this way again on other girls.

I still remember how everything started and how he asked me to be his girlfriend. I was really impressed and until this point of time I am still very impress. None of the guys that I know had actually impressed me like this. He didn’t even drop any hints and I didn’t realize that he was trying to court me. When he asked, I was so shock. The feeling of shock was more than happy. I am really proud to have him as my boyfriend. He is really a wonderful guy and I was crazy over him.

After talking to him yesterday, I realized that feelings for him are still here. I have never forgotten about him at all even I said that I had let go of this relationship. It has been six years and I am still waiting.

Though our relationship didn’t last as long as other couples, I am very happy to be with him. Since then I remained single because I am hoping there will be a second chance. At least I know that he is still single and hopefully I will get to impress him when I see him. This time I am going to meet up with him and will not chicken out.

Please give me a second chance. Some of you might think that I am very stupid for waiting for a second chance. You will probably be saying “Forget about him. If you are meant to be together, sooner or later you will be together. There are many guys out there waiting for you”

I think it is worth it to wait. I always tell my friends to forget about their ex and move forward. If you don’t forget and let go, then you will suffer. It is easy to tell others but it is not easy to do. It is not easy to let go, the feeling is like deciding whether to commit suicide or not.

Anyway, please wish me best of luck. I hope that everyone out there will find their true love.

Love

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