hot and cold

it feels so pathetic when you realise that someone treats you hot and cold

usually that someone will be the flirting partner

its like you are the toy

when he/she is bored...they will message you everyday

when you ter-slipped out of their mind, you wont even get a single word or alphabet from them

you and the partner can be actively messaging each other sharing all the laughter and sadness this week

but next week you dont even hear from them..

then out of no where, your partner will start messaging you again...

issit because im the reactive or need to be push?

or my partner has become bored in being proactive?

everyday every hour seconds and minutes

staring at phone

wishing that there is a message from the partner

darn! i guess everyone hates this feelings

guess i am used to it..

or should i be the proactive one?

or am i the one who is treating the partner hot and cold?

share your experience with me

or how do you feel when you are being treated like a toy

out of sight out of mind

still waiting

love

ps

scapegoat

scapegoat

kambing korban

its never easy. all the blames will be put on you even if you know NUTS about it

Its not even your fault but you were the easiest to pick on

the best is just to nod your head and keep your mouth shut

if not things will turn worst

dont want to go through another day of scape goating..

hope things will turn out well as days goes by

but it seems things are getting worst when things are coming to an end

wish me luck 

love 

ps

Wedding and Gathering

I guess this is the only time when we get to meet everyone which is when someone gets married. Was great to see the happy couple finally walking down the love lane. Wish you both a ever long lasting marriage and a strong built family.

The leng luis =)

Yam seennnngggg

Edison - the second to be drunk

College buddy - susanna miss you loads =)

with henry and wendy

perfect =)

Albert - Still the same . no change

The Group 18 DAC

the usual mikio =)

with chin yong

with hua =)

it was so happy to see everyone there. i miss the college life so much. we hang out together so much. wish you guys all the best in the future undertakings. Someone or anyone please get marry soon so that we can gather again.

xoxo
ps

Alittle update

work - moving up with a little stress. performing well, i guess and presume. so far no complaints from superior. YET!
social life - improving and growing i guess
relationship - still the same. single and available. looking for part time partner
emoness - bad. nickname *emo gal*
height - still the same.
weight - still the same but its up and down. good food everyday.
studies - gonna take up another professional qualification. Crazziee!
financial - so so still surviving. hope to improve.

When to leak the news?

I wish i can blurt everything out without the need to care or bother what other people say. But this time i choose to be selfish ignorance conservative. No one will ever understand my feelings.
Not sure when is the right time to leak the news out.
Its either gonna be a big BIG BIG surprise or its gonna be a bad news

Looking at you, you were so happy. When i was about to open my mouth to leak the news, my conscience told me to stop and shut up. Because i do not want to spoil your happy mood and i want you to be happy.

So i thought it would be good to tell when you are sad. But the news will make you even sadder and i do not want you to be sad.

Thus, can someone tell me, when should i leak the big news? This news is gonna hurt all the people who are very close to me.

Maybe i took the wrong route made the wrong decision. I have caused so much trouble.

Peeps, i am so sorry

I seriously have no idea what the hell is happening to me. I thought things are under my control but it seems its going haywire. It was meant to be straight forward and it became complicated.
I have screwed up a lot of things but the worst part is I spoilt my friendship with two super close buddies. They were with me when my life was in a roller coaster.
This time I have decided not to drag them in to my troubles. I just dont know how to face them. Its really complicated. I feel so sorry for ignoring them. No one left me with any choices but this is the only way out. I really hope that they can understand me.
Once its sorted out, things will be back to normal. And I do sincerely hope from the bottom of my heart, our friendship will be back to normal.
Give me some time. I miss you guys loads.

xoxo
ps

baby dumping

Right

I am suppose to be amending my accounts but just wanted to take 5 mins to share some thoughts

been following up with news on politics, business, sports etc

one topic that caught my attention was Baby dumpling...

ooppss..i mean baby dumping

actually dumpling can be used because when they dump the baby, they always wrap it in white cloth macam wantan skin or plastic bag *white also*

so should be baby dumpling dumping

hahaha...

saw a abandon baby picture on the newspaper darn cute *nak cubit*

Boleh land minister said that baby dumping is related to porn

wait wait wait

porn causes baby dumping....where is the logic.

i know that when guys watch porn, they will watch it alone or with their guy friends

so how can sex happen? guy and guy sex?

ok..u must be saying.."nope..you can watch it with ur gf to stimulate"

right yes you can

but if u know that you gonna watch porn with ur gf with a possibility that sex might happen

GO GET CONDOM OR PREPARE ONE LA....Aiyo....its quite cheap. if you think that Durex is quite pricey, then you can consider this brand *Just Shoot* its abt RM2.70 is sold in KK Mart

for god sake

if you dont have the intention to get pregnant, please have protected cum safe sex

i am pretty sure you know the existence of condom

if you want unprotected sex or you think condom affects the pleasure, then GIRLS take out the calendar..and start calculating...check when is the fertile week. Sila merujuk ke buku rujukan Biologi tingkatan 5/4... If that week is fertile and you dont want the baby, then I am so sorry ..your only option is condom or postpone the sex date.... no more condom and sex

yes i agree that baby dumping should be classify as murder. charge both the girl and the guy. Both parties are equally wrong...

will continue in a bit..lunch time.