Peeps, i am so sorry

I seriously have no idea what the hell is happening to me. I thought things are under my control but it seems its going haywire. It was meant to be straight forward and it became complicated.
I have screwed up a lot of things but the worst part is I spoilt my friendship with two super close buddies. They were with me when my life was in a roller coaster.
This time I have decided not to drag them in to my troubles. I just dont know how to face them. Its really complicated. I feel so sorry for ignoring them. No one left me with any choices but this is the only way out. I really hope that they can understand me.
Once its sorted out, things will be back to normal. And I do sincerely hope from the bottom of my heart, our friendship will be back to normal.
Give me some time. I miss you guys loads.

xoxo
ps